Suddenly, your inner colorful morphs into a mottled palette overnight, a drab washed out lizard salmon of a life. That tempest within, she wakes, cocking what a diminutive dun you are.
Facing shadows - a melancholy one must battle.The past days have been so for me. What was there to do but embrace it. My adoring gratitude goes to the one who is patient and who believes and makes me laugh, until once again I am suffused with the sensation of bright - a conduit to the honest happiness around me. Tis' over. Now, I claim my emergence.
"One need not be a chamber to be haunted...
one need not be a house.
The brain has corridors
surpassing material space."
- Emily Dickinson
Something is happening to me. For weeks on end I am swept over by a sour suffocating smog of the soul. As if my spirit, once blithe and carefree, all of a sudden felt faint weary, begging for rest - that long deep dreamless rest of the ones who sleep. Scares me.
I am not unfamiliar with my shadow. We are....acquainted.
Once a year I am besieged with an un - s.u.n.c.t.i.m.o.nious vacuum that knifes through my being. A veritable selfishness, sloth and venom of days wherein I pace my dysmorphic earth with hollowness. As if nothing exists and matters. Ghostly. A self satisfied canting of there is no mend.
End.
I speak to it - at it - my barren shadow.
Not with fights. Not with accusations. Not with soothing words nor with acceptance.
Letting it be, I walk it through capturing beams and prisms as light amiably slants through branches, leaves and twigs, settling in streets, lawns and bends. Lucent.
I catch the light
and I catch it
and catch it
and catch it.
Until captured, the light becomes me,
and becomes me,
and becomes me,
and finally,
becomes me,
chasing my shadow -
away.
and becomes me,
and becomes me,
and finally,
becomes me,
chasing my shadow -
away.
Lux Lucis Vita
CATCHING LIGHT CHASING SHADOWS
( a photo journal - click on the link to view all pictures.)
( a photo journal - click on the link to view all pictures.)
Ahh... yes, the familiar shadow self, we all have them, no? In the end, at the deepest depth of our hearts, our soul knows that "this too shall pass".
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